Only go through it if you feel in your heart it is the right thing to do and won't bring up the old feelings associated with this incident. Talking about this kind of has two things going on. It can raise awareness for people who suspect someone might be suicidal or has "joked" about it before, it can help people deal who have gone through this experience, (just knowing that you are not alone can mean the world to somebody)...then there's the people who will not care, think the speech is worthless, and it won't matter to them, because what do they care.

Ultimately the decision it's yours and take some time to think everything over and you'll know whether or not you can do it.

*Hugs

That was very heartfelt and...sad. It really moved me. There's no question you're speaking from your heart.

Sorry for your loss man. Tragedies like this never make any sense.

She said that she prefers me to do it as my final speech. I'm not sure if I'm going to do word for word but give something similar about the speech and raise the awareness.

So long as you don't break down.....which you probably will and she probably wants you to....go for it.